the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak

gosh, i need rest! i feel so tired. i guess that's how we really are as people. even if we really, extremely like and love what we're doing, we can't help but feel drained. no doubt, i would never exchange being a teacher for any other job i can think of right now, but gosh........ i confess, i really wish it's semestral break tomorrow.

because i wanted to continue teaching, i need to go to grad school, and oh yes! grad school is not just something you could breeze through just like that... yes, you have few meetings with your professors, but there's tons of paperwork and research to do, with of course, the weekly assignments given by the prof. actually, i haven't started writing any paper yet! i'm just in my reading stages. i need to pass 4 papers for a psych. class and 3 for statistics all due by the first week of october and what day is today?! september 2!!!!! waaaaaaaaaahhh!!! would i be able to survive?!? you might say, "OA naman!" there's one more month! sorry, but these are my true feelings, it's good if those are the only things i have to think of, but no! oh NO! of course, there's the daily lesson plans, recording of grades, and all the tasks to be done by any class adviser and club moderator

grading period's done for the 1st quarter. many students in the second year level got failing grades in various subjects, even in my advisory class. i would really love to talk to each one of them so i'll be able to help them catch up, but how?!! i need time!

i guess another reason why i'm feeling down this moment is because of the reactions from my co-teachers (again) that i seem to give students high grades -- which i can readily defend by the marks they got in their quizzes, homeworks, seatworks, etc. they wonder why some got very high grades in math, while they fail in others... uhmmm, would that have to be my problem? my goal was to help every student love math, that it isn't that difficult, in fact, it's fun -- so as to encourage them that they can be good in it! so, i see to it that i don't leave a topic unless most of them have a good grasp of it, and i try to guide them through every step of the process... perhaps that helps them (?)

waaaaaaaaaahhh!!! i need superman, spiderman, i need a hero! ;)

... but most of all, PLEASE PRAY FOR ME!